by Christina Hubbard
As an ENFP on the Meyers-Briggs personality test, I value whitespace on my calendar. LOTS of it. Please, don’t box me in or schedule every hour of the day. I will most certainly implode. I also value commitment and being intentional, but a force within me fights hardset plans.
As you can imagine, I’ve had an ongoing love-hate relationship with my planner. After using it diligently for two weeks straight, I suddenly toss it in my bottomless purse and forget about it for a month. Years ago a friend told me, “Intention without expectation.” I like that. Recently I’ve tweaked it a little, “Intention, with GOBS of flexibility.”
Since 2018 began, I’ve been getting used to my new planner and coming to terms with its overhelpfulness. Today I thought I would write it a little note.
I have tried my best to love you
Although I secretly desire to throw you across the room
Your hard-bound gold embossed cover,
Straight-edged, pointing me to turn pages,
And climb goal-setting mountains.
You promise me a sense of accomplishment,
Glorious task-checking satisfaction.
But I love to ignore you,
To have free time,
And no plan Fridays.
When I look at your hexagon habit tracking pages,
Gold spiral easy-turn binding,
Weekly goal focus bullet points,
I see your soul, your desire to infuse me with intention.
What’s a free spirit to do?
I bought you because you were beautiful.
Aqua cover, folder pockets,
And blank pages promising a great year.
Trying you on, day after day, I cringed.
I tried so hard to set a mission and
Formulate focused goals.
But I’ve already failed.
And I’m ok with it.
Because in the back of your binding
Are stickers and a pencil tucked away.
No longer do I make plans in black ink,
Like dark ropes binding me to the page. //
Being intentional means writing with an eraser
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I decorate and customize with pastel stickies,
A gleeful sense
Of making something beautiful wells up within,
Good things are happening
And I’m beginning to like you.
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P.S. This is my 2018 liveWELL Planner® | Flex Aquamarine from Inkwell Press. Tons of wonderful resources for the free-spirited achiever.