by Christina Hubbard
“Tell me who I am,”
We beg with eyes across coffee shop counters,
Family dinners of tomato soup and grilled cheese.
If we could simply remember
What is buried in our ancient field of memory,
A mound we made in the backyard at six or ten.
Here we tucked a pigeon feather in a milk cartoon
With a sappy song we called a note to our future self.
We patted dirt and leaves for security.
Moss and grass hid it from the world.
Now we remember what we forgot to dig up.
What our mothers and fathers, friends and professors
Meant to say when they questioned our judgement,
Critiqued with eyebrows and red pens
Their hearts were gasping, so big and bound up in love knots,
We never heard anything more than less than.
Shall we go back to the ancient burial mound?
You get that stick, I’ll fetch a broken bottle
For the digging.
Love from a Fellow Creative
Can I do this? Am I good enough? What if I run out of things to write about? Do you remember prepping for your first writing assignment? I do. All of these questions came pouring out before I could stop them. Self-doubt, insecurity, fear. My husband looked at me incredulously and then gave me a loving but firm rebuke.
“Shauna, the God who raised Christ Jesus from the dead lives inside your mortal body. He is the Source of ALL creativity! You will NEVER run out of things to say!”
I was shocked for a moment, but then the truth of God’s Word started to sink in. Yes! We are not alone. Father God lives inside us (Romans 8:11), and He loves to tell His secrets to His friends (John 15:15 MSG, Amos 3:7). We just need to be available, and He will speak THROUGH us. My friends, as you prepare for the challenge set before you, don’t faint. Don’t shrink back. You can do this! Trust the Source!
—Shauna Blaak, writer & singer. Blaaklist Writers.
All Jesus did that day was tell stories—a long storytelling afternoon. His storytelling fulfilled the prophecy:
I will open my mouth and tell stories;
I will bring out into the open
things hidden since the world’s first day. Matthew 13:34-5 (MSG)